Having an odd sense of non-emotion now around the potential purchase of property. It’s not at the top of my mind, hardly a priority in my day, yet the process is sailing along ever more smoothly. It looks like it’s going ahead, and we’ll be on the new 5 acres of digs in a month, with a horse. Every so often I think, oh yeah, in no time I’ll probably be on some land and life will look completely different. I’m sure I’ll be bursting with excitement as soon as I pull the camper into the barn, and start cleaning brush and designing gardens, lists flying everywhere, but until then, other things dominate my head.
Like writing! Praise be, we’re writing. My friend and I are both working on big projects that have stayed more in the realm of vision than reality for far too long. Now together, we’re making them real. We have a writing date, and both of us sit down and click and stare sternly at our pages, pausing over word choices and spelling. The half hour we promise to do turns into an hour and half every time.
I’m familiar with the way that an idea is perfect and glowing, bursting with energy and perfection, but then you sit at the keyboard filled with intention, and the words don’t come out in nice sentences with the pop you imagined. Three hours later you look up hungry, thinking you still have to finish it up, rewrite the beginning, and edit the whole thing, let alone format and post it. I know that song. That’s just what it takes to make something real instead of a fantasy.
As I plunge into the hitchhiking book it feels like I knew it would take time, but now I know how much. The table of contents that flowed out of me on a break between rides on my last trip is a blessing. It gives a structure and creates a list of topics. Every day I’m tackling one little category and writing about it. I’m sure every word will change in the edits that will be required, but right now I’m getting the ideas out in words. It’s terrible, artless writing, but it’s out there now, and after all of it is “out” will come the stage of editing to make all those pieces readable and entertaining. Then will come the stage of editing that will give it form and cohesion. It’s a hell of a lot of work, and I “knew” that before, but now I KNOW. And it’s underway, which is spectacular. A small but valuable accomplishment: beginning.